Christmas 2018

Dear Friends:

We are celebrating Advent. We are waiting for the Celebration of the birth of Christ. What is more beautiful than knowing that Christ is born in your heart. It is this wonderful feeling of peace.

“Be still and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10)

It was the year 1989 and my husband and I were on a 4 year stay in Germany. We lived in the Algaeu, in the southwestern part of Bavaria. Winters there are normally true winter wonderlands but not this year. It was getting close to Christmas and there was no snow in the whole area. We had a Christmas vacation planned in a small town in Austria, in Seefeld, about a three hours drive from our home. We wanted to spend our last Christmas of our stay in Germany in this magical town in Austria. I was sure we would have a white Christmas.

We arrived in Seefeld on December 23rd, but there was no snow in sight. We stayed right in the center of town next to a beautiful Catholic Church. I had packed some Christmas decorations and off we went to find a little pine tree. We decorated it and our little tree was beautiful. All we needed now was snow. All day I prayed, please Lord, let it snow. I was not sure how important this was to our Lord, I did let God -Father, Son, and Holy Spirit- know that this was very important to me. There was no snow in the forecast and this is one of the favorite ski areas in this area.

After my husband fell asleep, I knelt by the window looking at this amazing clear starlit sky. I remembered the words from the Bible, “Ask and it will be given to you.” I pleaded with the Lord: “Please Lord, let it snow. This is all I want for Christmas.” I thanked the Lord and went to sleep.

I truly felt like a little girl when I got up in the morning and went straight to the window and lo and behold it was snowing and this truly felt magical. I said: thank you, thank you, thank you Lord.  Our Lord answered my prayer. What magic there is in prayer. We then hiked all day in the snow.

After a wonderful Christmas dinner at our hotel that evening, with readings from the Bible in three languages (German, French, and English), we attended Midnight Mass at the Church right next door.

After mass the whole choir with trumpets, trombones and other brass instruments walked out into the town square, the congregation followed, and the music continued into the late night. Even the balconies around the town square where filled with musicians delighting the townspeople and all of us. This was pure magic. I could not have had a more beautiful Christmas.

Our Lord is faithful. ”Ask and it will be given to you.”

What a gift our Lord gave to us with the birth of his Son which we celebrate for 2018 years this Christmas.

And the word became flesh and made His dwelling among us, and we saw His glory, the glory as of the Father’s only Son full of grace and truth.” John 1:14

Jesus’ Birth Foretold

Luke 1:26-36 New American Standard Bible (NASB)

26 Now in the sixth month the angel Gabriel was sent from God to a city in Galilee called Nazareth, 27 to a virgin engaged to a man whose name was Joseph, of the descendants of David; and the virgin’s name was Mary. 28 And coming in, he said to her, “Greetings, favored one! The Lord [e]is with you.” 29 But she was very perplexed at this statement, and kept pondering what kind of salutation this was. 30 The angel said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary; for you have found favor with God. 31 And behold, you will conceive in your womb and bear a son, and you shall name Him Jesus. 32 He will be great and will be called the Son of the Most High; and the Lord God will give Him the throne of His father David; 33 and He will reign over the house of Jacob forever, and His kingdom will have no end.” 34 Mary said to the angel, “How can this be, since I am a virgin?” 35 The angel answered and said to her, “The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you; and for that reason the holy Child shall be called the Son of God. 36 And behold, even your relative Elizabeth has also conceived a son in her old age; and she who was called barren is now in her sixth month.

We wish you and your family a joyous Christmas and many blessings for a healthy, peaceful and happy 2019.

May God bless you.

Your friends in Christ, Brunhilde and Lubbo


A Special Bouquet for Carmen

It was an exciting wonderful summer day. My thoughts went back to the time when my children were little. Now they are all grown up with children and some grandchildren of their own. For a second, time stood still. In my mind I watched them play and giggle and laugh. They were so happy. Thankful to our Lord for being able to remember it all. I thought, “Today is a good day to paint a special bouquet.” As I started to play-paint, I truly felt this was my playtime.

I put a first layer on and washed it off, this was a perfect background. As I started to paint, I could picture this in my daughter Carmen’s kitchen. With so much love in my heart, my brushes moved over the canvas with such ease creating this beautiful bouquet of flowers. I knew God gave me this special gift for my daughter. I did play with it for over a week, just a touch here and there until I felt it was finished. I waited for the right day to give the painting a few coats of protective spray. The sides of the canvas are part of the painting, so it looks ready to hang without a frame. I could not wait until I could bring the finished painting to my daughter. She loves the new painting and it looks great in her kitchen. Our Lord is wonderful.

As I walk through our house, I am so thankful for this special gift of painting. I cannot explain the closeness I feel with our Lord when I create a painting and when I contemplate-meditate on the paintings I created earlier. This is when I feel being held in His arms.

The following is one of my poems, taken from my book, My Walk with Christ, A Spiritual Journey.

A time to dream

All I needed was a little time
To catch myself
Become still,
Take time to dream
All those wonderful dreams,
Things to do, to see, places to travel to
To contemplate.
What is life still holding for me?
My secret wishes and plans.
Where do I still want to go?

My little girl inside keeps stirring,
Don’t grow up to fast.
You are too young,
Sit down and dream your best dreams yet
While there is still time.
Don’t lose me please

In this fast -paced world,
In those empty faces
Where they are told what to dream,
What to do, how to sing and how to dance,
How to dress and who to be.

Dare to dream your own dreams,
To see through your own eyes.
To think your own thoughts,
To choose to seek,
To be the one you are.

There is still time.

John 15:5 “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing”

To all of you, enjoy the rest of summer and feel His blessings.

Love, Peace and Joy,
Your friend in Christ, Brunhilde


Summer has finally arrived and with it hopefully time to contemplate, to search for our purpose in life. We are here to live a life of finding our highest self and daily strive to live it. When we do that we know God is. Be still and know.

God is in each one of us. God is in the love we show to others. It is our duty to let His light shine to those around us and let others feel the presence of God within us. We are not in the world to live for our own self; we are part of a whole and without living that part in the right way we are not helping to build a healthy, yes, God-fearing society where we share the love God shows to us.


A poem taken from my book,  My Walk with Christ a Spiritual Journey

Oops, I am sorry I stepped so carelessly through the grass.
I hope I did not hurt you, this life beneath my feet.
It is so small, I am afraid to go forward.
It is important,
Just as important as I am.
Are we all part of the same?
And when we shed this body,
Do we all become “One?”
Or do we stay a lonely spark?

Please, earth; let me feel your softness,
And the morning dew on my naked feet.
Let me listen to your stillness,
Let me hear your secret sounds.
Let me feel your arms,

Let me feel one with you,

And this precious stone, and this tree.
Just allow me to put my ear to you,
Let me feel your pulse.
Let me feel the love that connects us all,
That which allows me to be part of the “One,”
The “One” for eternity

So, please help me to step forward, carefully.

Do you not know that you are the temple of God  and that the Spirit of God dwells in you? (1 Corinthians 3:16)

Dependence on God

Matthew 7:25-34 “Therefore, I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink, or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food and the body more then clothing? Look at the birds in the sky; they do not sow or reap, they gather nothing into barns, yet your heavenly father feeds them. Are you not more important than they? Can any of you by worrying add a single moment to your life-span? Why are you anxious about clothes? Learn from the way the wild flowers grow. They do not work or spin. But I tell you not even Solomon in all his splendor was clothed like one of them. If God so clothes the grass of the field, which grows today and is thrown into the oven tomorrow, will he not much more provide for you, O you of little faith? So, do not worry and say, ‘What are we to eat? or ‘What are we to drink?’ But seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you besides. Do not worry about tomorrow; tomorrow will take care of itself. Sufficient for a day is its own evil.”

I love watching the birds and other wildlife, and how wonderfully God cares for all the different species. With this in my mind I created the above painting I call “Summertime” When I started to become an artist, I asked my God—please teach me to see, I wanted to paint my heart, paintings from within where the Lord dwells. I hope my painting will stir your imagination.

In the words of Edward Munch (1863-1944): “Let us try and see, even though we ourselves may not succeed, if we cannot lay the foundation of an art dedicated to mankind. A style of art that will fire man’s imagination. An art that springs from our very hearts.”

I wish all of you a summer filled with His love and some time to dream.

Your friend in Christ,
Love, Brunhilde

Pentecost 2018

Come Holy Spirit come, Come Holy Spirit Come,
Come Holy Spirit Come!

Father, Son and Holy Spirit, all three but one Lord.

What a gift to all of us. What a precious gift for us to know Him and be able to freely worship Him. We live in troubling times when our freedom to worship our one God could be threatened at any time and often is looked upon with negativity. “Be still and know that I am God,” these simple words spoken with reverence have such power, yes: “Be still and know that I am God.” Jesus is the way, the only way. He was born for all of us, so we can have eternal life. He left us with His Word and He send us the Holy Spirit. He deposited His soul into the hands of the Father.

Luke 23: 46, 47 “When Jesus had cried out with a loud voice, “Father unto your Hands I commit my Spirit.’ Having said this, He breathed His last. So, when the centurion saw what had happened, he glorified God, saying ‘Certainly, this was a righteous man.'”

Our soul needs to be guarded carefully. It is our most treasured possession. As Christians we also deposit our soul into the hands of our Lord. Into the Hands of the “I Am who I Am.” By fully surrendering we become part of the “I Am.” With this surrender He will fill us with His love and make us a gift to all the lives we are part of. We are open to receive His blessings. God is permanently involved in our lives. He is in control. He reveals His will for our lives to us. He protects us, He shields us, He empowers us. God acts in righteousness. God intervenes in our lives. He will give you the very best. Our faith is a big mystery. We are serving a real God. Faith is not a religious logic, it is a spiritual force. Faith does not just come by hearing the word: it comes directly from God by hearing.  The stronghold of faith is access to the voice of God.

Romans 10:17, “So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. Therefore, if you can access hearing the voice of God, you are free. God still speaks today.

We have an awesome God. He gave us the Holy Spirit. We are also left with the Greatest Book ever, the Holy Bible. It is still the best seller. Let’s go and spread the Good News into all the world. Then surely the world will become a better place for all.

This Sunday we celebrate Pentecost, the coming of the Holy Spirit. Let our hearts be open so we also can be part of a big transformation in this world shaping a more loving, peaceful, joyful, and yes, just world for all.

Have a wonderful celebration of Pentecost.

Your friend Brunhilde

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Love that never ends

Happy Easter to all of you. He is risen, yes, He is risen indeed. The tomb was empty, He kept His promise. He loved us so much.

Mark 12:29-31 “Which is the first commandment? Jesus replied, the first is this: ’Hear O Israel! The Lord our God is Lord alone! You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all our soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength!’ The second is this: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no other commandment greater than these.”

 In our Christian experience nothing is more important than who Jesus was and still is. When we understand who Jesus is, we also understand what love is. Love is not just a fussy feeling. Love is what the Lord demonstrated on the cross. He died for all of us.

In Matthew 1:21 “She will bring forth a Son, and you shall call His name Jesus, for He will save His people from their sins.”

In Matthew 1:23 “Behold, the virgin shall be with child, and bear a Son, and they shall call His name Immanuel.” which is translated, “God with us.”

God loved us so much that He sent His only Son to show us how to love. My favorite prayer is still Our Lord’s prayer, which I still pray in the German language:

Vater unser, der Du bist im Himmel. Geheiligt werde Dein Name. Zu uns komme Dein Reich. Dein Wille geschehe wie im Himmel also auch auf Erden. Unser taeglisches Brot gib uns heute und vergib uns unsere Schuld, wie auch wir vergeben unseren Schuldigern, und fuehre uns nicht in Versuchung sondern erloese uns von dem Uebel.  Amen.

Matthew 6:9-14 “Our Father in heaven, hallowed be Your name. Your kingdom come. Your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. And lead us not into temptation but deliver us from the evil one. For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.”

John 13:34-35, “A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another. By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.”

1 Corinthians 13:4-8 “Love suffers long and is kind, love does not envy, love does not parade itself, is not puffed up, does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil, does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth, bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.”

1 Corinthians 13:13 “And now abide faith, hope, love, these three, but the greatest of these is love.”

2 Thessalonians 2:16-17, “Now may our Lord Jesus Christ Himself, and our God and Father, who has loved us and given us everlasting consolation and good hope by grace, comfort your hearts and establish you in every good word and work.”

In the Bible the word love is mentioned over and over again. It sounds so easy, but it is often hard.

I often pray: please Lord teach me to love as you love us.  This is not easy.  When I listen to the evening news there are many times when I quickly say:  “Please Lord, teach me to love as you love us.” God is Love.  He cannot do anything else but love us all equally. This is hard to comprehend, but He does love us equally. He died on the cross for all of us. He showed us how to love without reservation, to “love one another as I love you.”

Psalm 18:1-2, “I will love you, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock and my fortress.”

The following is a poem I wrote:

Love that never ends

by Brunhilde Luken

As I woke up this morning
I felt so loved by You.
You were still holding me.

With many thanks, I greeted the new day.
You smiled at me.
I knew right then
That nothing could take away this wonderful love.
So freely given,
For me to take.

Just seek and you will find,
It is already there.
Before you could ever think of Me
I put it there.
I allow you to choose
I hope it is I,
The eyes of your heart
Will tell you why.

True love can only be found within.
Just trust Me
I will take you to this never-ending flow of love,
It’s deep in your heart.

As you seek Me,
It will never part”.

Much love to all of you. Your friend Brunhilde

Lent 2018 – “Come closer to me”

Matthew 11:29, “Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”

Can you drink the cup?

I am sure many of us have asked ourselves often “Can I drink this cup” as life presents us with many challenges.

We are vacationing in sunny Tenerife with our son and his family. While away from home we lost a dear friend. It was very hard trying to make sense out of this loss. Knowing that he is with the Lord certainly helped. My youngest sister is also in a dire situation. There are times where I don’t know if I should ask the Lord to help her to let go of life to be with her Lord or to heal her. Only our Lord knows.  He knows when we empty our cup. We just put our trust in the Lord and ask Him to please hold our hand and never let go.

Did you ever feel this unbelievable overwhelming love and just knew Jesus was holding you?

He carried the cross to die for all of us. He loves us so much. By staying connected to Jesus we are also able to carry our cross and grow in His love. What a wonderful love this is. Every time we receive Holy Communion we receive His Body and Blood and renew our commitment to our one and only God, the One we allow to lead us through life. Thank You Lord for all Your Love.

The following is a quotation by Ron Hansen in the foreword to Henry Nouwen’s book Can You Drink the Cup?:

“Holding the cup of life is, for Nouwen, a way of looking critically at who we really are, accepting our various skills, inadequacies, and differences from others, rejoicing in our radical singularity. Lifting the cup ‘is an invitation to affirm and celebrate life together’.”

Starting the first Sunday in Tenerife we enjoyed celebrating mass with people from different countries where the word was spoken by a Spanish Priest translating the word into the German language. It felt wonderful to know we are all connected through our faith in the Lord Jesus Christ. We also found English speaking services.

Let us also lift the cup to one another and celebrate our differences.

Have a Christ affirming Lenten experience where we also carry our cross with His love.

Your friend in Christ, Brunhilde

In Prayer and Meditation

Psalm 42:2-3, “As the deer longs for streams of water,
so my soul longs for you, O God.

My soul thirsts for God, the living God.
When can I enter and see the face of God.”

When I created this painting I truly cried out to the Lord, not in sadness but in love to connect my Lord to my sister who is ill. I reached to heaven in prayer and experienced this total peace that can only come from our Lord. I found myself deep into contemplative prayers: what will happen after we leave this body?

In the above painting, I can see a mysterious peek into paradise. I also see Jesus holding several little children in His arms. I can see the deer bending their head to drink water. As an artist, I have a great imagination. I am very thankful for that gift. Our Lord also had to imagine first all that He created. I paint from my soul, where my Lord dwells.

I just finished reading a book by Erwin Raphael McManus The Artisan Soul, crafting your life into a work of art. I fell in love with his book. He also spoke about how as you create become one with the Lord and so your creation becomes a oneness with God.

It is important to find your own voice. Be the one you were created to be. To do good art you must have courage. It is your ow n soul you paint. Anybody studying my paintings will know me well.  It is the Lord within me. I am a passionate artist. Sit back, relax and find your peace, the peace that can only come from our Lord. Become very still and allow God to touch your soul through my painting.

The following is one of my poems:

I like to paint heaven with purest delight,
Where people walk happily side by side,
No color or gender will keep them apart,
We will all walk together in His great big heart.

May God bless you much,
love, your friend Brunhilde



Come closer to the Light

Psalm 27

“The Lord is my light and my salvation, whom should I fear?
The Lord is my Life’s refuge; of whom should I be afraid?”

Revelation 22: 1-5

“Then the angel showed me the river of life-giving water, sparkling like crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb down the middle of the street. On either side of the river grew the tree of life that produces fruit twelve times a year, once each month; the leaves of the trees serve as medicine for the nations. Nothing accursed will be found there anymore. The throne of God and of the Lamb will be in it, and his servants will worship him. They will look upon his face, and his name will be on their foreheads. Night will be no more, nor will they need light from lamp or sun, for the Lord God shall give them light, and they shall reign forever and ever.”


When I created this painting, I felt so close to the Lord. It felt like a prayer when you feel His calling: come closer!

This time I started the painting with the center, the light. Soon the painting emerged. Time went by quickly and as I studied the painting I knew it was time to put the brush down. Just a few little touches the next day and I knew it was finished.

To create a work of art one has to be truly alive and very still at the same time to capture a moment of thought. This moment you cannot repeat, what you see is what your spirit adds to line and color. Please take time to study the painting, so you see what your spirit sees.

In the words of Philip Guston (1930-1980)

“The painting is not on a surface, but on a plane which is imagined. It moves in a mind. It is not there physically at all. It is an illusion, a piece of magic, so what you see is not what you see.”

In the words of Eugene Delacroix (1798-1863)

“The merit of a painting is undefinable… a word, it is what the spirit adds to color and line that appeals to the soul.”

John 12: 46, 47

“I came into the world as light, so that everyone who believes in me might not remain in darkness. And if anyone hears my words and does not observe them, I do not condemn him, for I did not come to condemn the world but to save the world.”

I hope you enjoy my newest creation,

May God bless you and keep you,

Your friend Brunhilde


A Special Gift

When I created the above painting, I felt so carried by our Lord, our king of kings. Touched by His majesty, I truly felt one with our Lord. I was overcome with this total peace.  Thankful for the Gift our lord bestowed on me.

The canvas was still empty. My table was filled with paints, brushes and sculpture tools, and plenty of water to clean my brushes. Bubbling over with this amazing energy I started to create as time passed unnoticed by me. When I finished this painting, I knew it was a Gift I gave to the Lord.

I hope you take the time to allow the painting to speak to you.

Psalm 31:3, “Lord, since you are my rock and my fortress, for the sake of your name lead and guide me”.

Galatians 2:20, “I have been crucified with Christ: it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me”.

Lord Jesus you are my life spring. You are my strength.

Lord, you are the bread of life,

You are the air we breathe and the light that shines day and night.

Lord you are the love of life, you are my strength and my salvation.

You are my everything. Without you I can do nothing, with you I can do everything.

May you feel His love and closeness as you allow my painting to speak to you.

A few words from the book “Artist to Artist speaking” by Eugene Delacroix (1798 – 1863),

“Fine works of Art never age, because they are marked by genuine feelings. The language of the passions, the impulses of the heart, are always the same.

May our Lord and Creator of all bless you,

your friend Brunhilde

Easter and Spring 2017

Springtime, a time to plant new seeds. The seeds will grow and produce beautiful fruits and vegetables. Then there will come a time when we reap what we planted. The season is ripe to harvest. Beautiful flowers, turnips, tomatoes, onions and much more. If I did not plant onions and tomatoes, I cannot reap them.  What a surprise to find I did not reap all that I thought I planted. Too many distractions took my time. Now it is late, those seeds would not have time to grow and bear fruit in this season

This is like it is with our soul. We prepare our soul for a great harvest. We do not know the hour or the time when we will be called home to our final resting place, a place more beautiful than any of us can imagine. It will be the time when we reap what we planted.

Luke 12: 34

“For where your treasure is, there also will be your heart.”

Isaiah 30:18-21

“Truly the Lord is waiting to be gracious to you, truly He shall rise to show you mercy; For the Lord is a God of justice; happy are all who wait for Him! He will be most gracious to you when you cry out; as soon as He hears He will answer you. The Lord will give you bread in adversity and water in affliction. No longer will your teacher hide himself, but with your own eyes you shall see your teacher, and your ears shall hear a word behind you saying: “This is the way; walk in it.”

Proverbs 3:5-6, 11-12

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, on your own intelligence do not rely; In all your ways be mindful of Him, and He will make straight your paths.

The discipline of the Lord, my son, do not spurn; do not distain His reproves; For whom the Lord loves he reproves, as a father, the son he favors.”

Psalm 32:8

“I will instruct you and show you the way you should walk, give you counsel with my eye upon you.”

People rebelled against the Lord. They worshipped other gods. They did not keep the commandments

God gave to Moses. But our Lord loved us so much that He sent His only begotten son to restore  humanity to Himself, and show us the way. Jesus loved us so much that he gave his life for us. We all have that chance by our free will to spend eternity in heaven. All He asks of us is to surrender our life to Him. It sounds so easy when we grow up in a society that does not like to relinquish control. Once we surrender our life to the Lord, give all control to Him, He will awaken us to His plan for our life. Our eyes will open. We can then proclaim, I was blind, but now I see.

Matthew 16:13-18

“Peters confession about Jesus. When Jesus went into the region of Caesarea Philippi, He asked His disciples, “Who do people say that the son of man is?” They replied, “some say John the Baptist, others Elijah, still others Jeremiah or one of the prophets.” He said to them, “But who do you say that I am?”  Simon Peter said in reply, “You are the Messiah, the Son of the living God.” Jesus said to him in reply. Blessed are you, Simon son of Jonah. For flesh and blood has not revealed this to you, but my heavenly Father. And so, I say to you, you are Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church, and the gates of the netherworld shall not prevail against it. I will give you the keys to the kingdom of heaven.”

With this Jesus established His church.

Matthew 17:5

“The transfiguration of Jesus. While he was still speaking, behold, a bright cloud cast a shadow over them, then from the cloud came a voice that said, “This is my beloved son, with whom I am well pleased; listen to him.”

After this Jesus continued his mission to teach and perform miracles. The disciples and those surrounding them could not fully understand or they would not have left Jesus when He had to die on the cross. They also would have truly believed him when He told them that He will rise on the third day. Jesus tried to make his disciples understand that he is the son of the “Most High.”

Matthew: 2-4

“He called a child over, placed it in their midst, and said, “Amen, I say to you, “unless you turn and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven.”

Jesus continued His journey, foretelling what would happen. He proved to his disciples His godliness and His humanity, when He called out in Matthew 26: 39 “My Father if it is possible, let this cup pass from me; yet, not as I will, but as you will.”

As I journeyed with our Lord through the gospel of Matthew I came again to the realization how important it is to say: Not my will, but your will be done. Each time we pray “our Father who art in heaven hallowed be your name, your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven,” we surrender our will to the will of our Father.

Lord give me the grace to journey in my prayers and heart with you through the Passion Week. What a joy our own Easter will be.

Have a blessed Easter

Your friend in Christ, Brunhilde

A comment to my attached painting, “Springtime” In the words of Vincent Van Gogh—I should reproach myself if I did not try to make pictures which will arouse serious thoughts.